Reed's Ruminations: A Blog by Dan Reed

The Endless Frontier and the National Science Board

N.B. I am pleased that the White House has announced that I am being appointed to the National Science Board (NSB), which provides advice and oversight for the National Science Foundation (NSF). In recognition of this honor and responsibility, I have been reflecting on how much the NSF has shaped my career over the past thirty-five years, and how much I owe the Foundation in return.

Anxious Proposal Writing

As a new, assistant professor in the fall of 1983, armed with a thin NSF proposal guide, I labored to write my first proposal. Like all young and inexperienced proposal writers, I struggled, searching for a lede that was both novel and compelling.  I wrote and rewrote, agonizing over each paragraph, late into the nights.  Sleep deprived, with the submission window at hand, I decamped to the local post office with a postage meter, where I mailed a set of proposal copies to NSF’s old Washington, DC. address at 1800 G St. NW, near the International Monetary Fund. 

Mind you, this was before electronic proposal routing, with far fewer certifications and checklists.  Paper forms were simply duplicated and stapled for mailing. The World Wide Web did not exist, the NSF supercomputer centers (including the National Center for Supercomputing Applications (NCSA)) had not been created, and NCSA’s Mosaic web browser not yet been released.  It was a time when a daily dialup CSNET connection was the state of the art among most computer science departments, and I knew a non-trivial percentage of the electronic world’s denizens blessed with an email address. (See Remembering Internet Dogs.) 

My first NSF proposal was about a then radical idea, one I had explored in my Purdue Ph.D. thesis, that supercomputers could and should be built from large collections of microprocessors. When I began that work, the Intel 8086 was still a new and novel product, and the IBM PC had not been released. Doubling down on this crazy idea, my friend and colleague, Richard Fujimoto, and I later wrote an MIT Press book about this approach. Fortunately, time has shown that we – and others – were right about microprocessor clusters.

A few months after submitting my first proposal, I mustered my courage and called the NSF program officer, hoping for good news. To my great joy, he kindly related that the proposal, entitled Performance Directed Design of Multimicrocomputer Systems, would be funded in the fall of 1984, with the munificent sum of $55,825. Although many tens of millions of research dollars have since followed, I will always be grateful for NSF’s initial investment in my future.

A Lifetime of NSF Connections

At the time of that first NSF proposal, I had no idea what arc my career might follow, nor how intimately I would be involved in computing’s future and its myriad connections to NSF.  These have included serving as computer science department head at Illinois, as NCSA director, as founding director of the Renaissance Computing Institute (RENCI) at North Carolina, and as the leader of the eXtreme Computing Group (XCG) at Microsoft. Throughout, I have been fortunate to be involved in building advanced computing infrastructure for scientific research (clusters, GPUs, and the NSF TeraGrid, now XSEDE), advancing high-speed networking, ensuring access to cloud services for science, and engaging in research collaborations of many forms.

When I wrote that first proposal, neither could I have then foreseen how much the world would change due to computing’s now ubiquitous influence. For a few musings on these effects, see NCSA@30: The Revolution Continues, Microsoft/NSF Cloud Research Partnership, and Reluctant Revolutionaries, the Trolley Paradox, and Ender’s Game. 

The one constant in all of my experiences has been the National Science Foundation. Over the years, I have been fortunate to engage NSF on many levels:

• As a researcher and an early Presidential Young Investigator (PYI) awardee, which made possible long-standing industry collaborations with Intel, IBM, and other companies
• As a member of many multi-institution research projects (e.g., on scalable I/O, virtual grids, and mesoscale weather forecasting)
• As a member of the Computer and Information Science and Engineering (CISE) advisory committee
• As a proposal reviewer, workshop organizer, report writer, informal advisor, distinguished lecturer, member of National Academy studies, and member of both the President’s Information Technology Advisory Committee (PITAC) and the President’s Council of Advisers on Science and Technology (PCAST)
• As a witness in Congressional hearings about computing, science, and technology futures (e.g., this House Science Committee hearing)
• As a leader of a Major Research Equipment and Facility Construction (MREFC) project – the Distributed Terascale Facility (DTF) and Extended Terascale Facility (ETF) that were the TeraGrid
• As an industry partner – the Microsoft/NSF Cloud Research Partnership

All of that built on a long legacy of NSF innovation.

The Endless Frontier: Looking Forward

In July 1945, Vannevar Bush responded to a request from President Roosevelt with a prescient and insightful report, one whose significance and import echo across the decades.  In that report, entitled, Science: The Endless Frontier, Bush noted, “…without scientific progress no amount of achievement in other directions can insure our health, prosperity, and security as a nation in the modern world.” He further notes, 

… since health, well-being, and security are proper concerns of Government, scientific progress is, and must be, of vital interest to Government. Without scientific progress the national health would deteriorate; without scientific progress we could not hope for improvement in our standard of living or for an increased number of jobs for our citizens; and without scientific progress we could not have maintained our liberties against tyranny.

Bush’s seminal report, still worth reading, resulted in what we now know as the National Science Foundation, charged to both develop new knowledge and to train new generations of scholars.

I, along with many of you, have been blessed beneficiaries of that wisdom and foresight. I have also been fortunate to count many CISE leaders and NSF directors as friends and advisers.   It is in that spirit, that I am now pleased that I am being appointed to the National Science Board, where I hope to help the NSF continue to support and sustain scholars – young and old – and to advance scientific research and ensure national competitiveness.

The Magic behind the Curtain: Hardware and Software

The Wizard of Oz is a beloved and widely watched movie that brought us Technicolor, several memorable songs, and lasting cultural memes – “We’re not in Kansas anymore,” “There’s no place like home,” and “Somewhere over the rainbow.” In the movie, Dorothy’s dog, Toto, pulls aside the curtain, revealing the great and mighty Wizard as a mere mortal projecting the trappings of power through indirection and abstraction.  Attempting to continue the charade, Oz proclaims, “Pay no attention to that man behind the curtain!”

Deception once revealed, however well intentioned, is mere artifice.  Accordingly, magicians guard the secrets of their tricks assiduously. After all, it is how they earn a living. More importantly, a trick’s mystique makes it both alluring and intriguing. The legerdemain in a coin’s disappearance may still bring a smile to one’s face, but familiarity with the French drop lessens its mystery.

In my experience, a distinguishing feature of researchers and scholars is their interest in not just in the “trick,” but how the trick is created and performed. These are the people peering around the corner, dissecting the art and engineering beneath each Disney World^TM theme park ride

Hence, some seek the truth, whereas others treasure illusion and, sometimes, their own self-deception. As Morpheus says in The Matrix, “You take the blue pill - the story ends, you wake up in your bed and believe whatever you want to believe. You take the red pill – you stay in Wonderland and I show you how deep the rabbit hole goes.”

Segue alert! Every teacher wants his or her students to take the metaphorical red pill and explore the rabbit hole. It is about challenging beliefs, perspectives, and illusions with new ideas and approaches.  I have reflected on this dichotomy since my very first teaching experience, when I looked back at aspiring young students with both anticipation and trepidation.

As a teacher, there is no greater joy than seeing understanding in the eyes of students, when seeming magic is at last replaced by holistic insight. In short, it is about illumination and understanding, pulling back the curtain on apparent magic to reveal an unbroken chain of insights.

Architectural Magic

As a computer and computational scientist, I long ago realized that introductory computer architecture is the transformative place where computing prestidigitation becomes intellectual engineering. It is where varied computing insights unite in the big reveal – how an idea and the abstraction of an algorithm embodied in code becomes an instantiation in logic, hardware, and device physics.

Make no mistake, the rabbit hole runs unbroken from quantum mechanics through undecidability, the Church-Turing thesis and Turing machines to computability theory and formal language theory (Chomsky hierarchy). It touches the very nature of what it means to think.

First, let’s step back and remember how the intellectual puzzle pieces form the big reveal.

By the time most undergraduate students study basic computer architecture, they have often received an intellectual dose of electricity and magnetism (E&M), perhaps via the latest edition of the same Fundamentals of Physics by Halliday, Resnick (and now Walker) that I studied as an undergraduate over forty years ago. Conductance, capacitance, inductance, wave/particle duality, and quantum tunneling; it is all there. (I so treasured the joy of my E&M course that I have saved my lecture notes and worked problem sets across multiple moves and several decades.)

An introductory class in device physics, transistors, and digital logic often follows E&M. There, the rudiments of semiconductor devices and VLSI design include field effect transistors (FET) (See gate, source, and drain), MOSFET NAND gates, and flip-flops. From there, it is just a hop, skip, and jump to circuit design and logic minimization. At this point, students have architectural Lego^TM blocks and some vague notion these are intellectually sufficient, but microprocessor architecture remains as aspirational and unattainable as a Lego Empire State Building.

Meanwhile, most students have also been learning new programming language(s), efficient algorithms (quicksort), and associated data structures (balanced binary trees). Years ago, the programming languages of choice would have been C or FORTRAN. (I first learned FORTRAN in the 1970s, using WATFIV; see A Feeling for the Code). Today, most introductory computing courses teach Python, with its large sets of libraries, tools, and IDEs.

What really happens when one writes a loop or invokes a procedure? Is it just an incantation, an intellectual sacrifice offered to the machine? Therein lies the reification magic of compilers, which translate code in a high-level language such as C or FORTRAN into equivalent sequences of machine instructions. (The nuance of interpreted languages such as Python is a topic for another day.)

I have found manually translating a simple piece of code (e.g., a loop that sums a set of numbers) into a sequence of assembly language instructions small enough to fit on a single piece of paper is by far the best pedagogical technique. Those symbolic assembly language instructions then map directly and intuitively to individual machine language instructions, each defining a specific hardware behavior (add, read, write, branch), but whose collective describe the intent of the high-level language code.

Trust me; we are now nearing the French drop, but there is nothing up my sleeve …

Computer architecture is where code meets hardware, and the seemingly disparate Lego pieces become a dazzling whole. (It is not turtles all the way down.) Constructed using only those elementary logic gates (aka Lego blocks), the conceptual execution of machine instructions for a simple, non-pipelined stored program computer (superscalar, out-of-order, and parallel are topics for another day) can be traced easily using only pencil and paper. (Computer Organization and Design by my friends Dave Patterson and John Hennessy is as legendary in introductory computer architecture as Halliday and Resnick in physics.)

Simple, yet elegant, these designs embody the core ideas of the von Neumann architecture and its fetch-decode-execute instruction cycle. To test their designs, many a budding computer architect has also trekked to Radio Shack (RIP) or Fry’s (one stop shopping for potato and DRAM chips), or let their fingers do the walking online, for parts to breadboard simple computer components. The more ambitious and adventuresome also stuffed circuit boards and sported solder burns as a point of pride.

The great reveal, the denouement is now at hand. From electrons through transistors and gates to architecture, and from algorithms and code to machine instructions on architecture, it all comes together.  It is all there, the magic of ideas – the abstraction that is code – is now manifest in architecture, hardware, and physics. That is the “Aha!” moment, when students truly appreciate the intellectual construction, like Chartes, that both dazzles and inspires. The true wonder is that one can explain it all on a single whiteboard!

Deep and Open Questions: Not All Is Yet Revealed

The amazing construction that is modern computing rests on many scientific and engineering insights, a few of which are now feeling the strain of their age. The von Neumann model, for all of its elegance and simplicity, increasingly limits future innovation (See Nothing Lasts Forever), and the future of semiconductor technology – 7 nanometers and below – is economically and technologically uncertain. The Landauer principle and low energy (operations/joule) or even reversible computing beckon.  Quantum computing labors in an uncertain aborning, brain-inspired neuromorphic computing is in its infancy, and DNA-based storage and computing are nascent.

Perhaps, the most important intellectual question of all, one deeply related to the nature of computational complexity and the partial recursive functions lies open. Does P=NP? (i.e., is the class of problems where verifying a solution requires non-deterministic polynomial time (NP) the same as the class of problems where computing the solution requires polynomial time (P))? Put another way, if the solution to a problem can be verified in polynomial time, can it also always be found in polynomial time? Most think not, but resolving the question has bedeviled the some of the best mathematical minds of the last century. (If you think you have a proof, sketch it in the margin and claim mathematical immortality.)

Make no mistake, the rabbit hole goes deep, connecting two of the greatest intellectual edifices of the last hundred years – decidability, computability, and complexity united with quantum mechanics and the standard model – via algorithms, software, and computer architecture. The rabbit hole reaches to the very foundational question of what it means to think and share information. There is undeniable magic inside, and that magic continues to transform our perceptions and our world.

Given a choice, always follow the rabbit hole. Scrutinize the man behind the curtain. Seek the big reveal. See the whole whiteboard. Therein lies magic.

As Far as the Eye Can See

In 2016, while Vice President for Research and Economic Development (OVPR&ED) at the University of Iowa, I invited faculty from across the university campus to author essays, sharing what attracted them to their field, why they had devoted careers to exploring big questions, and what research and scholarship have contributed to the world. The indefatigable Stephen Pradarelli, communications director in the Iowa OVPR&ED, skillfully edited the faculty contributions. Last week, I was privileged to be back in Iowa City for the unveiling of the resulting book.  Stephen and I co-wrote the introduction, an abbreviated version of which I have reproduced below.

Few scientists in the history of the University of Iowa embody the American spirit of discovery and innovation as vividly as the late James Van Allen. Born on a small farm near Mount Pleasant, Iowa, Van Allen was fascinated by mechanical and electrical devices, and he was an avid reader of Popular Mechanics and Popular Science magazines. In the 1990 issue of the Annual Review of Earth and Planetary Sciences, Van Allen wrote that he loved to tinker as a child, building elementary electrical motors, crystal radios, and, once, to his mother’s horror, a Tesla coil that discharged foot-long electrical ribbons and “caused my hair to stand on end.”

That tinkering led, in time, to Van Allen making some of the most important 20^th century discoveries in space science while a researcher at the University of Iowa. A device he designed and helped build for Explorer I—America’s first satellite—enabled him to detect a zone of energetic charge particles that originated from the solar wind and were held around Earth by its magnetic field. The finding of what was later dubbed the Van Allen Radiation Belts landed him on the cover of Time magazine in 1959, when the United States badly needed a PR boost after the Soviet Union’s successfully launched Sputnik. It also led to the establishment of a new research domain, magnetospherical physics, and demonstrated that brilliant scholarship takes place in big cities and small, coastal Ivy League institutions and Midwest public universities. 

In the same way that the 31-pound Explorer I needed a rocket to reach space, researchers—scientists and scholars—depend on financial and public support to seek answers to the universe’s most intriguing questions and to explore and elucidate the human condition. With public and political backing, universities have blazed a path of discoveries over the past fifty years that have reshaped the world, translated basic research and scholarship into new cancer treatments and smartphones, life-changing public health policies and social science insights.

The universal human drive of curiosity—the thirst not just for information, but for deep understanding—has survived all manner of challenges over the centuries. That is certainly true at the University of Iowa, whose medical research, writing programs, and space exploration have been providing fresh insights into the nature of the universe and the human experience since the school’s founding in 1847, just 59 days after the state of Iowa was admitted to the Union.

This book highlights some of the current research and scholarship at the University of Iowa, not just from an academic perspective, but from a human one. We asked the contributors to write about their work in language accessible to a general audience, to help readers understand why such work is important to the public, and to share what attracted them to their chosen fields of study. Research is about the systematic exploration of the unknown. Of course, not every line of inquiry leads to a great breakthrough; in fact, there is value in having one’s expectations confounded. As James Van Allen has said about science, “pure investigation has enormous benefit. I can't tell you what this might be good for, but learning about nature is important. And lovely things turn up.”

My wish is that this collection of essays builds understanding about the value of academic inquiry and inspires hope for the future. If nothing else, you should take away a sense of the passion, dedication, and vision University of Iowa’s researchers and scholars bring to work each day.

Happily, for those of us who parlayed youthful curiosity about the world into a lifelong profession, there is no end of mysteries to solve. In her Pulitzer Prize-winning novel, Gilead, author and longtime Iowa Writers’ Workshop faculty member Marilynne Robinson wrote, “This is an interesting planet. It deserves all the attention you can give it.” Indeed.

To solve some of the most challenging mysteries and to better comprehend and celebrate what it means to be human—understand how the world works, explore how and why we respond to it in the ways we do, and express the fruit of those inquiries in bold and creative ways—we need public trust, support and vision for the role of public research universities like ours.

May this book help persuade you to join us on this journey of discovery.

A Feeling for the Code

Each individual’s professional path from past to present is defined by an oft-unexpected and uncertain trajectory.  As the Danish philosopher, Søren Kierkegaard once remarked, "Life can only be understood backwards; but it must be lived forwards." For some, the path is clear and straightforward – a simple gradient ascent, or more sadly, descent. Alas, life, like most multivariate functions, is rarely globally convex. Rather, it is filled with a seemingly random distribution of local minima, each of which can become an unwitting trap, and time rarely permits an exhaustive and deterministic global optimization. Instead, one must be satisfied with limited stochastic optimization. As best, life is a bounded simulated annealing, making each decision potentially transformative. (See One Life to Live.)

Canto One: Geek in a Small Town

Why might I ramble inanely about the dubious duality of life and optimization theory? Perhaps because my life path and its objective function were changed by a single experience.  As Peter Medawar wrote in his delightful book, Advice to a Young Scientist, “I cannot distinctly remember a time when I did not think that a scientist was the most exciting possible thing to be.” From an early age, I too felt that calling – my childhood dream was to be a scientist, and by my teenage years, more specifically, to be a physicist.

In my naiveté, I knew mathematics was the language of physics, but my small high school’s mathematics curriculum ended with plane geometry. Haltingly, with borrowed library books, I began teaching myself trigonometry and elementary differential calculus. (See Libraries: Arms Too Short to Feed the Mind.) By backing one of my high school classmates into the water fountain while expounding excitedly about limits, derivatives, and the slopes of tangent lines, I finally and irretrievably branded myself the left-handed, myopic geek I truly was, a seemingly singleton set in a small town.

Canto Two: Finding Others

Just after this, I was thrilled to spend a summer at the University of Arkansas in a science, technology, engineering, and math (STEM) program. As a term of art, STEM gained currency much later; I simply basked in the opportunity to do something amazing – stretch my talent and expand my limited knowledge with a group of likeminded physics students.

Ensconced in Fayetteville, I repeated the double slit experiment, which left me pondering wave-particle duality and the uncertain nature of reality. More importantly, in that small academic community nestled in the Ozark mountains, I met people who shared an academic passion to know and to discover. For the first time, I did not feel alone, and for that, I will be forever grateful.

During that summer, I also received a brief introduction to digital logic and a crash course in FORTRAN IV. Less powerful than today’s smartphones, computers were then multimillion-dollar behemoths, housed in secure facilities, their use limited to a select few. Now instructed in obscure, digital incantations, I was now privileged to offer subservience to the great machine. In the 1970s, this was heady stuff for a young boy from the backwoods.

Somewhat coincidentally, I was soon to read The Machine Stops, E. M. Forster’s chilling meditation on technological dependence, However. I was in no way sufficiently prescient to imagine our future dependence on these computing machines.  Excuse me; Alexa, set the temperature to 68 degrees. Siri, where is the nearest grocery store? Cortana, just who was E. M. Forster?  However, I digress, distracted by our digital surroundings.

Canto Three: Computing Life

At the time, the University of Arkansas had an IBM 360/50 system, and spira mirabilis, a Calcomp pen plotter that could generate graphs of computational outputs. Therein lies the second part of my transformative life experience.  Armed with rudimentary FORTRAN knowledge and a paperback copy of Waterloo’s WATFIV manual, I hastened to an IBM 029 cardpunch to write my first program. Of course, it did not initially work as expected, which then introduced me to the fine art of debugging, further honed when I foolishly attempted to write a chess program.

With ambition that exceeded my skills, that first program brought my simple mathematics to life in a wondrous way. It also forced me to think more deeply, as I built a mental model of its bifurcating execution paths. (See On Cognitive Loading and Intellectual Hierophany.)  I was rewarded when the static equations on my textbook pages took life; they danced and moved, revealing their secrets in rows of printed numbers and simple line plots. Deus ex machina!

Later, I learned of universal Turing machines, computability theory, and the Entscheidungsproblem, but with that first program, I knew immediately and instinctively that well-written code had an ethereal elegance and a haunting subtlety, and that breathtaking complexity – and beguiling beauty – could emerge from its simple rules and mathematical incantations. (Is there a computer scientist anywhere who has not been enthralled by Conway’s Game of Life and its cellular automata, fully Turing complete?)

Without doubt, I had found the calling of a lifetime, all that and more in a feeling for the code – the transfiguration of hypotheticals, the reification of concepts, and the instantiation of the imagination – code as both science and art.

Since then, I have marveled at intellectual haiku, brief code sketches that amused and illuminated. I have shuddered at abominable monstrosities, code assembled and then brutally modified by teams over decades, intellectual Frankensteins unleashed to sow destruction.  I have seen masterpieces of minimalist, yet surpassing beauty, where form inexorably illuminated function, crafted by artists of the first order. It is all there in the code.

Throughout, I have been privileged to collaborate with scientists across diverse disciplines, from astronomy and quantum physics though genetics and gene expression to weather analysis and severe storms, all via the universal intellectual amplifier that is computing.  (See Intellectual Amplification via Computing.) Each time there is excitement; there is wonder; there is discovery; there is insight, as ideas come to life.

A thing of transfixing beauty, the code pirouettes gracefully, dancing in my mind, conjuring the possible; it always will.

Finally, about that geek thing?  I have always been at peace with it.  Professional optimization complete; global maximum found. 

Libraries: Arms Too Short to Feed the Mind

N.B. This essay was motivated by a conversation with Alberta Comer, Dean and Director of the University of Utah's Marriott Library.

From my earliest days, I have sought to plumb its great depths, gleaning knowledge here, seeking meaning there, and always, encountering fellow explorers on their own intrepid quests. I speak, of course, of that extraordinary thing we so prosaically call the "public library." Beyond mere edifice, a library is the embodiment of an ancient idea – that knowledge and its representations can and must be protected, preserved, and transmitted to future generations, that access to knowledge is not limited to merely the rich or the powerful, but available to all who seek insight and understanding.

This simple notion of knowledge preservation and transmission is a noble idea for which many a person has given their very life to defend. The burning of the great Library at Alexandria is an enduring lesson on the dangers of cultural loss. More recently, Ray Bradbury's dystopian account of book burning in Fahrenheit 451 is itself a cautionary tale of censorship and the dangers that lurk when the free exchange of ideas is suppressed, something we would do well to remember today.

Books have always been my friends. From my earliest days, my parents read to me, as I nestled in their laps. Then, when I could read myself, they took me to the local library. In our case, it was a humble, small town, Arkansas library with just a few thousand books. Nevertheless, for me, it was a magical place, filled with extraordinary things.

My new University of Utah colleague, Alberta Comer, the Marriott librarian, tells a similar story of her rural Oklahoma childhood and the transformative power of the library. Alberta's parents drove her many miles to reach the traveling bookmobile, where she discovered a world unknown. Decades later, her eyes still glisten with the memory as she tells the tale. My own eyes moisten, as I too remember and understand.

As a young boy, I remember staggering up to the library's checkout counter, arms filled with all the books I could carry. Looking up at the library clerk, I struggled mightily to set the stack on a counter that was above my head. In turn, the clerk looked down at me, smiled, and asked in the adult voice every child instinctively knows, "Are you sure you can read all of these?"

The implication of the library clerk's interrogative being, of course, that I had selected more books than a young boy could possibly read in the allotted time. I thought, but dared not say, for even children sometimes understand the power and importance of deference and discretion, that I was limited by the length of my arms, not by my reading ability. Given the choice – and longer arms – I would have taken twice as many books. Instead, I simply smiled and said, "Yes, I can."

I knew what the librarian did not. I had already set myself on a book a day habit that was both highly addictive and in equal measure, emotionally and intellectually satisfying. I neither knew the pronunciation nor the etymology of the word autodidact, but I intuitively understood its meaning. I could not delay; fierce urgency drove my actions. I had to hurry – there were so many books, so many things worth knowing, and so, so little time.

In that small town's store of humankind's intellectual treasure, I found transformative ideas. In those books, I felt the warp and woof of history; I saw the power of scientific revolutions; and I marveled at the extraordinary experiences of individuals both living and dead. I read of people, places, and things that once were and are no more, of those that never were but could be, and of those that lived only in the fecund imagination of others.

Like an idea-driven junkie craving an endorphin high, I read omnivorously – books, dictionaries, and encyclopedias. From aardvark to zyzzyva (I still haven't seen either one in the flesh), I read it all. I devoured popular books, some fluffy intellectual cotton candy, momentarily satisfying, but of little import. I read tomes that were as intellectually deep as they were physically weighty, laboring over each page. In that sense, Francis Bacon was right: "Some books should be tasted, some devoured, but only a few should be chewed and digested thoroughly."

I read books whose content was well beyond my years – poetry, literature, history, economics, and science – some of which I fully understood – and others whose full import exceeded the capacity of my limited life experience to appreciate. (Reading books on the My Lai massacre at age thirteen comes to mind.) Asimov, Bradbury, Ellison, Heinlein, and Browning, Chaucer, Doyle, Golding, Lewis, Shakespeare, I savored them and many others, an intellectual cornucopia that filled me with both knowledge and wonder.

In time, I came to recognize both the wisdom and the practical truth of Desiderius Erasmus' words, "When I get a little money I buy books; and if any is left I buy food and clothes." At times in my life, I have unhesitatingly made that explicit choice – spending my last dollar on education – then subsisting on canned vegetables until my job provided enough to purchase a more varied diet. One can live for weeks or months on a meager diet, but a life without books, without ideas, is unimaginable.

From impassioned and zealous acolyte, I finally came full circle, having belatedly learned the most important lesson of all – I truly know nothing – having realized that true knowledge begins with the humility of ignorance. We are all ignorant, each in different ways. Recognizing that, we approach new opportunities as humble supplicants, seeking knowledge and insights from any who would teach.

Make no mistake, books have power, for they contain both knowledge and ideas. Knowledge transforms society; ideas change minds. And it all happens in a library, for books are still the best way to upload new ideas into the wetware of willing minds.

As Plutarch noted, "A mind is not a vessel to be filled, but a fire to be kindled." Libraries blaze, but not, I pray, with the burning of books. Rather, libraries set minds afire, and those minds illuminate the darkness that is our collective ignorance.

The future is always burning with possibilities; it begins with each enlightened mind. Books and libraries are the kindling.

Heading West: To the University of Utah

I am delighted to share some news. Effective July 1, I will be joining the University of Utah as its Senior Vice President for Academic Affairs (SVPAA). You can read the announcement at this link (https://attheu.utah.edu/facultystaff/new-senior-vice-president-for-academic-affairs/) or below.

I am both humbled and filled with anticipation.

Daniel A. Reed named Senior Vice President for Academic Affairs at the University of Utah

Computational science scholar and former Microsoft executive brings unique mix of academic and economic development experience to the U's top academic position.

April 30, 2018 – Daniel A. Reed, Ph.D., has been named senior vice president for academic affairs at the University of Utah. Reed, who currently serves on the faculty at the University of Iowa, will start on July 1.

"Dan is an exceptional addition to the university's leadership team and the thought leadership of our state," said university President Ruth V. Watkins. "He is a talented scholar and administrator, and the perfect fit in our efforts to become one of the country's premier public universities. I look forward to working closely with him in the years ahead."

At Iowa, Reed holds the university's computational science and bioinformatics chair and is a professor of computer science, electrical and computer engineering and medicine. From 2012 through 2017, he served as the school's vice president for research and economic development. Reed is a former corporate vice president and technology policy leader at Microsoft, the founding director of the Renaissance Computing Institute at the University of North Carolina at Chapel Hill, and was the director of the National Center for Supercomputing Applications at the University of Illinois.

"Utah is a great public research university with a deep commitment to student success, breakthrough research and scholarship, effective economic development, and insightful partnerships that serve our society and health, and improve our world," said Reed. "It is a university with an even more extraordinary future. As they say on campus, it truly is Imagine U. I am excited to partner with its students, faculty and staff, and the citizens of Utah, as we build that future."

Reed's most recent scholarship has focused on challenges and opportunities related to cloud and edge computing in both academic and corporate research settings. A graduate of Missouri University of Science and Technology, he earned his master's and doctoral degrees in computer science from Purdue University.

In addition to his work on the faculty at the University of Iowa, Reed currently chairs the U.S. Department of Energy's Advanced Scientific Computing Advisory Committee and the steering committee for the National Science Foundation's Midwest Big Data Hub. He previously served on the U.S. President's Council of Advisors on Science and Technology, and the President's Information Technology Advisory Committee. He also chaired the board of directors for the Computing Research Association, which represents Ph.D.-granting computer science departments in North America, and currently serves on its government affairs committee.

About the University of Utah

Located in Salt Lake City, the University of Utah is the state's flagship university. It provides education to more than 31,000 graduate, undergraduate and professional students from all 50 states and over 100 countries. The university offers 72 major subjects at the undergraduate level and more than 90 major fields of study at the graduate level. With revenues in excess of $4.2 billion (FY17), the university is considered one of Utah's primary economic engines. The institution generates over $600 million annually for the state of Utah in nontax revenue and is one of the state's largest employers, with more than 3,300 faculty members and 33,000-plus full-time and part-time employees. The university is a catalyst for a research corridor through northern Utah that is a hotbed for technology and development activities, colloquially known as Silicon Slopes.

The Hopes of Parents and the Dreams of Children

N.B. Dakota State University President, José-Marie Griffiths, recently asked if I would deliver the university's December commencement address. José-Marie is a long-time friend and a former collaborator and colleague at UNC Chapel Hill. She and I also served together on the U.S. President's Information Technology Advisory Committee (PITAC). It was, as they say, a "no brainer" to gladly accept the invitation. I was also humbled to be recognized with an honorary doctorate.

In the past, I have offered advice on the art of giving commencement addresses. See, for example, my commentary in the Chronicle of Higher Education,  Commencement Speakers: Be Cool. You can judge whether I honored my own advice. And yes, that is me at my own college graduation.

Reflections

Thank you, President Griffiths, for that kind and gracious introduction. It is both a pleasure and an honor to be here today.

I am very mindful of the cardinal rule of speaking to a captive and restive audience – be funny and be brief, and when lacking in humor, by all means, be brief.

In that spirit, let me begin with two simple questions. Why are we here today? What are we celebrating?

Outstanding achievement? Yes, of course! Anticipation for the future? Absolutely! Celebratory photographs with family and friends? That too!

Looking back on those photographs, you will marvel at the youth of everyone in the photo, your parents and yourself. Then you will shudder at your attire. Trust me on this. In my case, neither the plaid, polyester suit in my commencement photo, nor my long, curly hair, have stood the test of time. Especially my hair! My wife now leaves the engine running when I dash in to get a haircut.

Humor aside, we are here today to celebrate something extraordinary, something that defines our very humanity – the hopes of parents and the dreams of children – shaped by public education and the dedication of teachers and scholars.

The Dangers of Knowledge Loss

Let's go back, way back, to the beginning. Two great inventions – agriculture and writing – have defined our civilization. Indeed, it is no exaggeration to say that writing created history. For the first time, knowledge could accumulate and be passed from generation to generation by more than oral tradition.

Today, it seems inconceivable that accumulated knowledge and insight could be lost. Yet knowledge and learning have always been at risk, and that remains true today.

While the United States continues to disinvest in education and scholarship, other countries are increasing their investment. Why? Because they know their country's most precious asset is an educated citizenry. It is both the best defense of democracy and the powerful engine that drives a knowledge economy. We need to remember that too.

That history I mentioned earlier has something to teach us on this topic.

With the decline and fall of the Roman Empire, a thousand years of intellectual darkness fell across Europe. During that time, it was the Arab world that preserved and extended science and mathematics. Our word "algebra" is a Latin variant of an old Arabic word. In these days of global fear and strife, it's worth remembering that we are united by common intellectual history.

Here's another illustration of the dangers of intellectual loss, one near to my heart as an amateur astronomer. In 1902, archeologists discovered a curious and puzzling device in an ancient shipwreck near the Greek island of Antikythera. Over 2000 years old, it was a gear-driven analog computer of astonishing mechanical and intellectual complexity, capable of predicting planetary motions. It took over 1500 years – 60 generations – and the Renaissance – for European engineering skill and astronomical knowledge to equal and then exceed that of the ancient Greeks.

The recurring moral of these and countless other tales – when we waver in our commitment to the pursuit of knowledge, even for a moment, the consequences can be grave. Why? Because each of us – graduates, faculty, citizens, and parents -- is connected by a chain of discovery and creativity that stretches beyond the dawn of history.

An Idea Embodied in a Place

As graduates, your place in that chain is what we celebrate here today, as both beneficiaries of the past and stewards of the future. Though a few of you may feel burdened by student debt, you all leave here today intellectually wealthy beyond measure, having dipped deeply into the well of human knowledge.

The precious contents of that well are preserved, expanded, and shared by teachers and scholars at public universities like this one. As professors, the thrill of adding a small piece to the great mosaic of human knowledge is extraordinary. One can live a lifetime in the moment of insight. But any teacher will tell you that thrill is equaled by the joy of sharing one's knowledge with others.

From them, you learned to teach yourself new things – to solve complex, ill-defined problems. This perhaps the most important skill you take with you today.

As citizens, our support for institutions of learning is a defining attribute of our culture and our civilization. A great university is an idea embodied in a people and a place – connected to the past by knowledge and wisdom – and connected to the future by society's commitment to the dreams of our children.

The Hopes of Parents and the Dreams of Children

As parents, you know an ancient truth, one held deeply in every heart. Every child deserves a chance – a chance to live a life defined by the content of their character, the scope of their talent, the reach of their dreams, and their willingness to work.

If you remember nothing else I say today, remember this. All too often, the circumstances of birth limit the future, with opportunity crushed and children's' dreams stillborn. This is wrong.

On this, I speak from sad personal experience. I grew up in poverty. Too young, you learn some ugly lessons about not wishing for what can never be, about being hungry and cold.

Yet even among the poor, there is a hierarchy. Kathy, one of my grade school classmates, occupied the bottom rung. She was dressed in handed down, hand-me-downs – a sweater that had seen better days before she was born – and worn out shoes.

Kathy lived just up the hill. In the third grade, she and I sat in adjacent seats.

One day, our teacher told Kathy, "I will not grade your homework. You erase and reuse your paper." It was a casual reprimand; it was a life changing moment, for both of us.

I knew the painful truth. I had watched Kathy practice her multiplication tables in the winter cold, using the only flat writing surface she had – the unpainted siding of her weather-beaten house.

I watched Kathy's face, and I saw her shame. I saw the light fade in her eyes; I saw hope disappear. I knew, with childhood certainty, that there was sin in the classroom.

I see Kathy still, practicing her multiplication tables in the cold, the dying dream of a little girl.

Kathy was lost, but I was found. I was a poor, unknown boy from the Arkansas hills, the son of a father with a fifth-grade education. This country invested in me, as a scholarship boy. It was a gift and societal act of faith that still beggars my imagination. It is a debt I can never repay, for reality has exceeded my dreams.

I've preached this message the world over. Talent knows no social or economic boundaries. The nurtured dreams of our children are our most precious asset. When we sacrifice investment in their future in the name of expediency, our hands are red with the blood of children's dreams. Kathy's dreams.

Education pays bountiful dividends, pressed down, shaken together, and running over. It connects us to the past, and it is our bridge to the future. All of you are powerful witnesses to that enduring truth.

The hopes of parents and the dreams of children – that is what we celebrate here today.

Looking Forward

As graduates, you leave here empowered by a valuable education, facing a world awash in change. As your friendly neighborhood Spider-Man wryly noted, "With great power comes great responsibility."

Here is my advice.

Meet and engage people unlike yourself. Learn to see the world through their eyes. It is both humbling and illuminating. Dare to take some risks. Make new and original mistakes – life's more interesting that way. Be involved in issues that matter. Make a difference in the world. Do good things for others, especially when no one is watching.

Pay your blessings forward. Someday, you too will harbor the hopes of parents and nurture the dreams of children.

Finally, remember what I told you about commencement photographs. If you want to borrow a plaid, polyester jacket, I'll be here by the podium. You are on your own when it comes to hairstyle; I have none to spare.

Congratulations! Thank you!

Now Batting …

There's a frosty morning icing on the ground, with a chill in the air, and summer's green leaves now hang withered and brown. It's late October and the languid days of summer baseball have given way to the fall intensity of the World Series. The television coverage takes me back to Southern boyhood memories of yesteryear, when baseball was a nighttime play-by-play voice on the radio and a daytime fantasy with made up rules.

Schoolyard Intrigue

Like most of my childhood classmates, boys and girls, I played schoolyard baseball at every recess opportunity. We chose our own teams, we made our own rules, and because you can only squeeze in an inning or two at recess, the games sometimes lasted for weeks. Though it was BOYG (bring your own glove), every classroom was graced with a school-issued baseball bat and ball, and we played every day, rain or shine.

By school year's end, that ball had rolled through water, seen many a mud puddle close hand, been bounced off rocks on our less than regulation field, and been whacked enough times to make the dead ball era seem as though it had been played with Superballs. The bat didn't fare much better; we hit baseballs and rocks, leaving it chipped and dented.

It was only grade school, but I almost had my arm broken playing this schoolyard game. One recess, I stepped too close to the make-believe Babe Ruth swinging the bat at imaginary pitches and took a hard blow to my arm. On returning from recess, my 4^th grade teacher took one look at the rising lump, and then walked down the hall to the principal's office to call my mother. Mind you, there was no school nurse and only one school telephone.

During this interlude, alone in the classroom with my fellow students, I managed the classroom intrigue. The teacher liked me, I was not one of the cool kids, and my classroom social status was already shaky. I knew the schoolyard omertà, and I assured everyone that there'd be no casting of blame.

My mother arrived a few minutes later, oblivious to my political machinations, and, despite my protests, carted me away to the town doctor for an x-ray. He, in turn, verified that my arm was not broken and charged her the munificent sum of $7. Why that amount? Simple, that was the maximum expense the school insurance would reimburse, and he knew my mother could not afford to pay more. By lunchtime, I was back in the schoolyard with a new story to tell.

Ghost Runners and Homemade Bats

During the summertime, I played baseball with my neighbor and best friend. Yes, you can play baseball with only two people, but it does take a bit of childhood creative license. As I recall, the willow was first base, the walnut tree was second, the oak was third, and maple tree was home. Unevenly spaced, the distance from second to third was about twice that of first to second, but that was the least of the flirtation with the rules.

We played with a homemade bat, made by one of my older cousins in shop class. Turned on a wood lathe and a bit lopsided – woodworking was not his strength – the handle was wrapped with white surgical tape. All this seemed perfectly reasonable to me; I was proud of that bat and I swung it with pride, though I might have used black electrician's tape instead.

Now back to the rules. On a hit, the pitcher chases the ball and then races to catch and tag the batter. If successful, this is an out. (In a more physical version, the fielder can throw at the runner for an out. Our mothers frowned on that version, and I wasn't fond of it either.) If the runner reaches a base, then he or she can call a ghost runner and return to the plate to bat again.

Sometimes a mano a mano faceoff between batter/runner and pitcher/fielder determined outs. The fielder would toss the ball in the air, daring the runner to advance. As successive pitches went higher and higher, eventually the runner would bolt for the next base and the chase was on.

Let me add that long before I learned of the Friendly Confines or the Green Monster, I knew the importance of home field advantage. Even through my nine-year-old eyes, I saw how the lawn mowing mores of one's father heavily influenced the pace and outcome of the game. If the grass had been close cut recently, the batter had a huge advantage because the ball could roll more freely; otherwise, tall grass definitely favored the pitcher. My dad hated to mow the lawn, and I was a slow, chubby kid; I always wanted to play at home.

KMOX and the Cardinals

If ghost runners and fantasy filled the days, radio and imagination owned the night. In the Arkansas Ozarks, the nearest professional baseball team was the St. Louis Cardinals, and their games were broadcast on KMOX, a clear channel AM station. Those were the days of Lou Brock, Orlando Cepeda, and Bob Gibson, and Harry Caray was the iconic voice of the Cardinals, long before his days with the Chicago Cubs.

In a nightly ritual, my parents, my grandfather, and I would gather outside in cloth lawn chairs, parked near an open window so we could hear the radio. Armed with grape Kool-Aid (me) and iced tea (the rest), we would sit in the dark and listen to the summer breeze and the rhythm of the game.

No one in my family ever attended a Cardinals game; that would have been a wild-eyed extravagance beyond our means. Instead, we relied on our imagination and a few word sketches from Harry to conjure the scenes of Gibson strikeouts, Cepeda hits, and Brock steals. It was a richness that filled my imagination, a memory of family happiness that lingers still.

Batting Triple Zero

The summer I turned ten, the community organized a summer Little League. I was excited, beyond excited – for the first time, we would be playing "real" baseball against teams from other area communities. Why, we even had actual uniforms and rubber baseball cleats!

Dreams of glory filled my head, inspired by those Cardinals broadcasts, the derring-do of schoolyard games, and the ghost runners who whispered of bases clearing home runs. In my imagination, the parents all stared open mouthed and the fielders' heads swiveled like marionettes to watch balls launched like 1960s rockets from my bat. Dreams they were, and alas, dreams they remained. I had the passion but, as I was soon to learn, not the skills.

Not only did I fail to make the starting lineup, I rarely played, whether as a mercy to my parents and me or to the other players and their parents I do not know. If the manager put me in, one could be confident the game was either irretrievably lost or inconceivably beyond losing. I was a bellwether indicator that even the most dedicated parents might want to close the cooler and start preparing to leave; this one was over.

I was a slow, left-handed player, so naturally they put me in right field. I was okay with right field; I had a strategy. I played, deep, deep right field, closer to the parking lot than to the action. Consequently, no budding Little League hitter ever hit one over my head. This made my task simple; run down hit balls, preferably while they were still rolling, and heave them in the direction of the infield.

My outfield strategy was born of observation, for I had seen one of my friends, swifter and more athletic than me, try, and fail, to catch a fly ball in centerfield. It looked like an easy catch, but he misjudged it, and the ball hit him squarely atop the head. Tears flowed, followed quickly by parental intervention, and later by laughter from all the players. I was determined to avoid that, and I did. Only later, did I realize I'd lived Peter, Paul and Mary's Right Field, absent the dandelions.

My hitting strategy was equally calculated but far less successful. Okay, let's not be circumspect about it – I batted triple zero for the season. Wearing thick glasses, I had both severe myopia and astigmatism, and I quickly learned to appreciate the truth of the baseball adage that you can't hit what you can't see.

Mind you, I was not staring down Hall of Fame pitchers with 96 MPH darting fastballs and a repertoire of breaking balls; these were fellow ten year olds for whom unqualified success was hitting the strike zone. Not that this mattered; I literally could not see the ball in flight, and the umpire's calls seem mystifyingly random to me.

The nadir came late in one game when I stepped out of the batters' box and grabbed some dirt to dry my sweaty hands, determined that this time, hope against hope, I was going to hit the ball. No doubt thinking that he had to work the next day, the umpire looked at me as the gloaming settled, and said, "Come on son, we need to finish this game." Nothing if not obedient to my elders, I promptly struck out yet again, putting an ignominious end to my baseball career.

Later that fall, my mother took me to the optometrist, where I was again fitted with new glasses. I was stunned to realize there were individuals, now including me, who could see individual leaves on trees. I had always seen them as brownish trunks surrounded by green blobs. I like to close my eyes and believe that with those glasses, I could have played in the fall classic and now be in Cooperstown. Maybe not.

On Cognitive Loading and Intellectual Hierophany

Lately, I have been thinking, and I have been thinking about thinking. Fear not, there is no infinite regress nor Münchhausen trilemma, for I am not thinking about thinking about thinking ad infinitum, Rather, I am writing about both thinking and thinking about thinking.

Thinking is an increasingly difficult task in a world where a torrent of invasive stimuli, each tailored for maximum emotional and cognitive addiction, overwhelms one's sensorium. Even under the best of circumstances, cogitation – the focused concentration of an educated intellect – is an all-consuming endeavor. To become one with a set of ideas, to examine them from multiple perspectives, to explore their interrelationships, and to understand their implications, is neither a task for the fainthearted nor for those given to momentary reflection betwixt the churning froth of daily life. To think deeply, to appreciate subtlety, and to understand nuance requires uninterrupted time. By uninterrupted, I mean many contiguous hours, a luxury rarely vouchsafed unsought.

Cognitive psychologists have long studied cognitive load, the total effort used in the working memory. To think deeply about any topic, one must first fill one's memory with the relevant information. Because each of us has a finite working memory, each distraction or interruption consumes a portion of that memory, displacing previously internalized information. We need time to fill our working memories, and the more complex the intellectual endeavor, the larger the cognitive load. To create new insights can require weeks, months, and sometimes years of focused contemplation. To have something worth saying, one must first truly understand, having traced the complete graph of causal chains, the intellectual Feynman diagrams glowing softly in the dark of the still unknown.

Seeking a Metaphor

Despite use of such terms as working memory and interrupts, I am not suggesting humans are biological computers; that lure of ill-advised analogies and metaphors has ensnared too many unwary embracers. However, the analogy is not without relevance, even if only as a cautionary tale. On this, I speak from personal experience.

One morning many years ago, a computer science colleague remarked that I looked tired. I replied that I had slept poorly, consumed by a dream-cum-nightmare. I then elaborated, explaining that I had dreamed I was a hard disk under heavy load, exhausted from seeking in response to random requests. My colleague laughed and then nodded sagely, recognizing my suffering from the consequences of Little's Law, frequent interrupts, and a long work queue. Beyond irretrievably confirming me as a geek, I leave any Freudian interpretation of my dreamy incarnation as an active, though inanimate object as an exercise for the reader, noting only that my nighttime dream embodied my frustration with the day.

Quiet, I Need to Think

We all know the importance of time and reflection; our social commentary and behavior embody it. The phrases "I need some time to think," and "I will work on it tonight when I have quiet time," all capture an intuitive understanding of the need for cognitive loading.

In an age when too much discourse has the enduring substance of cotton candy, the opportunity to speak does not imbue one with the responsibility to do so. Quiet is a virtue with many facets, as the perils of pontificating pundits and instant political and social commentary illustrate. There is undeniable value in reflection before acting or opining, however learned, wise, and experienced one may be. (See Contemplative Reflection and Instantaneous Communication.)

One of the lions of early 20^th century business, Thomas Watson, Sr. captured that ethos in IBM's simple motto, "THINK." In that same spirit, the corporate embrace of shared workspaces to stimulate collaboration and, collaterally, to reduce office space requirements, has been tempered by the realization that the increased interaction is not without cost, namely the displacement of critical working memory by office minutiae. The human guinea pigs in these corporate social experiments long ago recognized this intellectual tension, as demonstrated by the proliferation of office headphones to reduce extrinsic stimuli.

Personal Perspectives

For me, thinking deeply, whether creating complex software, writing extended documents, or pondering theorems, requires long hours to internalize relationships and dependencies. I need time to load my working memory, and free my mind from other concerns. Any distraction or interruption consumes precious time to recover, and the recompense for any discontinuity, however brief, can be ten-fold in lost time. Conversely, the rewards of cognitive continuity are emotionally extraordinary; it is an intellectual and emotional bliss sustainable until physiology demandingly intrudes and Morpheus takes me away. When truly engaged, I can work, fully immersed, for ten or more hours without pause.

I am not unique in my love of long form thinking, but all too often, even those who of us who treasure both the experience and its rewards, forget how daily life conspires to prevent it. We fritter time away in inconsequential tasks of no lasting value. Like most things of great worth, long form thinking requires commitment and dedication before its rewards are manifest in insight and in substantive and learned discourse.

Coda

As we grapple with the evolving and uncertain future of the American experiment, the stunning disavowal of fact-based argument, and the seeming repudiation of public higher education as a common good, the criticality of extended thinking – assiduously, diligently, cogently – has never been clearer.

Come now, let us reason together. Learned, shared insight is the true hierophany.

Livin’ Large on Three Cents a Bale

In the halls of academe, there is much talk of the need to impart financial literacy to our students, whether via formal education or informal tutelage. Avoid excessive student debt; understand credit card interest rates; plan and save for the future. These are all important lessons.

As a professor, I know that much can be taught and much can be learned in the classroom. I also know that some of the most valuable lessons are the practical ones, best learned experientially.

A dollar is not just an economics class lesson: medium of exchange, unit of account, and store of value – it can also be backbreaking labor in the hot sun, work done by fathers and mothers, sons and daughters, to provide for themselves and their families.

I learned this in the farm fields as a boy. It was a lesson beyond price, one for which I am thankful to this day.

Ozarks Childhood

I grew up in the northern Arkansas foothills of the Ozarks. There were red clay, dirt roads on three sides of my childhood house, only one room was heated, and I remember the family joy when we first got hot water. Even though I could see cows from the back porch, I was a "city boy," living in the incorporated environs, on streets with real names rather than just numbers, in a community with about 900 other souls.

Then, as now, about a third of the region's population lived below the Federal poverty line. There were few summer jobs available to enterprising teenage boys, because there were precious few jobs of any kind. Any fulltime jobs rightfully went to heads of households, even at (or below) the minimum wage, which rose from $1.60/hour to $2.00/hour in 1974. I knew many families living on the munificence of such a weekly paycheck, and even on the best of days, my family was not far from that sad state itself. A summer garden was not an organic, fresh produce luxury; it was a necessity. (See Just a Taste of Sherbet.) Health insurance, well, for most folks, that was a dream beyond imagining.

In the summers, I made a bit of money mowing lawns, but few in the community had the discretionary income to indulge in such an extravagance. Otherwise, I spent time with my grandfather, fishing for "red bellies" (sunfish) and rainbow trout and listening to the St. Louis Cardinals baseball games on the radio. During both, he would regale me with stories, all of which he remembered as true, and some of which actually were. Among them were tales of working on the farm for two bits a day, from "can to cain't" (from dawn until too dark to see). (See What Really Matters.)

Hauling Hay

Like my grandfather, my father grew up as a sharecropper, but by the time I was born, there were no row crops left in northern Arkansas. The land was too poor, and agricultural mechanization had rendered it unprofitable. Instead, timber was cleared from the hills, and those fortunate enough to own land now raised livestock on permanent pasture. Those cattle had to be fed in winter, and every summer, someone had to help the famers put hay away. As I got older, this created a new income opportunity – hauling baled hay from fields to barns.

Let's set the stage. It is 95-105 degrees Fahrenheit, with the sun shining and the humidity hovering near, oh, let's just call it southern outrageous. In other words, it was nothing special, just a typical Ozarks summer day. The hay cutting has already been windrowed for baling, and there are five of us at work. The farmer is driving the tractor, which powers and pulls the baler, ejecting two-string bales every fifteen feet or so. The farmer's wife is driving the two ton, flatbed truck, a teenaged stacker sits in the back, and two other teenaged boys are walking behind.

I can still see myself in my mind's eye. I am wearing heavy work gloves to keep the two-string bales, each of which weighs 40-75 pounds, depending on the type of hay, from cutting my hands to pieces. My job is to walk from bale to bale, pick them up, and lift them onto the truck bed for stacking. This was economic efficiency manifest – at three cents a bale, teenaged boys are far cheaper than a front loader.

Because I was not strong enough to lift the bales all day without touching my chest, I wore a long sleeved work shirt, which, despite the heat, was buttoned tightly to keep the hay from slicing my chest and arms. (At day's end, I discovered that the skin in the gap between my gloves and shirt was raw from repeated cuts.)

Each time the truck was filled, we drove from the field to the barn and began unloading. While tossing bales onto the growing tiers for stacking by my partner, I realized it was well over 110 degrees Fahrenheit in the barn loft, and I yearned for the breeze and the relative coolness of the open fields. During the rides to the barn, I grabbed my one-gallon plastic milk bottle and chugged ice water, thankful for the brief respite.

With sunset approaching, and after the last bale had been stacked in the barn, the farmer drove me home in his pickup truck and paid me in cash. I remember climbing slowly, painfully out of the truck, clutching my hard-earned six dollars.

That night, I could not sleep. It hurt every time I moved, and I coughed hay dust from my lungs, remembering how it had swirled in the barn's shadows all afternoon. In this world, respirators or masks were figments of an OSHA-fueled imagination.

I had thought I was in good physical condition for a teenaged boy, and I was. I had stacked lumber at the sawmill, working with grown men. I could play three hours of full court basketball in an un-air-conditioned gym, and not give it a second thought.

I was young and fit, and I thought hauling hay would be easy money; I was wrong.

Nevertheless, when another farmer came calling a few days later, I grabbed my work gloves and headed out the door. I needed the money, they needed help, and it paid three cents a bale.

Lessons Learned

Those days hauling hay as a teenager may have been among the most important educational lessons I have ever received, almost as important as understanding the power of plum jelly, and I carry them with me still.

I looked at my father with newfound respect; he worked hard at the sawmill in that hot sun every day to provide for us, and he never complained. He did what was right, not what was easy. I appreciated in a new and visceral way that there is dignity in honest work, no matter how difficult, and respect is due.

To this day, when I hold a dollar bill in my hands, I know it represents the fruits of real labor – three cents a bale – and I think carefully whether an item is really worth thirty bales. It is an emotional measure, another, personal medium of exchange.

Most importantly, I am thankful for the blessings I have received in this life and what so many have done for me. (See Transforming Lives Via Public Higher Education.)

I learned a lot, livin' large on three cents a bale.